Sorry about the whining.

ugh okay so like my mom really hates me and idk why she was like literally texting me all day and just like harassing me while i was at school and like i hate school so much and i have a panic attack every morning when i have to go but i was dreading coming home so much i like didnt want school to end which says a lot and i thought that she was going to kick me out and i was like so scared to go home because i absolutely hate being yelled at like it scares me so much. like ill literally sit there and shake it doesnt even matter whos yelling it just scares me. especially after that time my moms bf like broke shit and cornered me idk maybe im overreacting but im literally like terrified of people when they get mad now and idk like my mom just sat there telling me like everything thats wrong with me and how no one even wants me around and she was yelling so i was like tearing up and she got pissed about that too and i just hate it here so much no on even wants me like theres no point i just want to go and leave town and not come back because thats what everyone wants. and im trying so hard to not let what she says change who i am but its hard. like i dont want someone like that changing me but like what am i supposed to do. when youre told that youre a terrible person everyday its hard to not let that effect you at all.

and then like im still having trouble making myself eat rn like i just cant and uts bad and ugh ugh ugh uhghughguhguguuhguughuuhgugh